I am now officially 13 years old... plus 10! I'm so grateful to all the people who remembered my birthday. Thank you all! The kind words and greetings truly made my day.

This is how I know I have great friends: they didn't object when I lit my birthday candles.

"13"

Either I look it, act it, or they just cut me some slack since it was MY birthday after all.

Seriously though, my only wish is that God fills my life with even more wonderful people. The greetings, the gifts and the simple party were all a reminder that the past 23 years have been enriched by people who have stepped into my life. I feel so blessed that I actually want to hug the world, if that's at all possible!

Here's to a great 24th year of existence!

I am wide awake at this hour despite having had a really tough mentally and emotionally exhausting day. I guess I'm just bothered. Being the people-pleaser that I am, I know I disappointed a number of people today and now I can't but hate myself for it.

Sometimes, I wish I were a cold, heartless b... witch. I wonder if they sleep better than I do because quite frankly, I haven't had decent shut-eye in weeks. This is all because I have been so afraid of having important people frown upon my decisions and recent course of actions.

So, I know there's nothing more annoying than a vague blog entry such as this, but I promise to elaborate when all this blows over. In the meantime, I must begin counting sheep.

This song by James Morrison was released some time back and I'd never given it time of day until now.  I'm looking at the lyrics in a whole new light, perhaps because it applies to me right now.So, for cheesiness' sake, here's the lyrics to the song I just can't get out of my head:

You Give Me Something
by James Morrison

You want to stay with me in the morning
You only hold me when I sleep,
I was meant to tread the water
Now I've gotten in too deep,
For every piece of me that wants you
Another piece backs away.'

Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart.

You already waited up for hours
Just to spend a little time alone with me,
And I can say I've never bought you flowers
I can't work out what the mean,
I never thought that I'd love someone,
That was someone else's dream.

Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart,
But it might me a second too late,

And the words I could never say
Gonna come out anyway.'

Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart.

Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart.

Know my heart, know my heart, know my heart

These are random things I really appreciate.